Saturday Night Secrets #3

I still get excited every time I hear my phone ring from a text message. I get really excited when I see that its from you. And I get super excited to see a text from you when I check my phone in the morning. It’s not much but its still has a way to get me really excited. But it’s sad because it’s not the same.

Lately I’ve been grieving over things for no reason. Today, I’ve realized that I really should stop. Well to be honest, I’ve been telling myself to stop for the longest time now, but I always end up finding myself grieving over “it”. But not anymore. I can’t do it anymore because now I know that not everything can go my way. Everyone seems to be happier with what they got and I shouldn’t do anything to disturb it. I’m so out of the loop and I noticed that I don’t even know anything about it any more.

I might find myself constantly talking about it and unconsciously bringing it up but that’s only because I’m not used to it. It’s weird not having it a part of my life anymore. But now, I won’t bother with it because I have no power over it. Things happen and this is just one of those things that was meant to happen. I’m not happy about it and probably will never be happy about it, but if they’re satisfied, then I’ll have to accept it.

They say, “time will tell” and “time heals everything” but the more and more time I get, the more and more I start stressing and hurting. It’s time for me to just let go and accept the truth. No more of this, I will no longer watch them be happy and I will be happy too. deuces.

by the by. tong o dong a yong/ wong o u long dong/ hong a vong e/ bong e e nong/ tong wong e nong tong yong/ song i xong/ mong o nong tong hong song.